He the one that drives me crazy in thought

 its true I do like him  .. it wont make sense to anyone but HE lol .. I would love to be trapped by him even in a relationship I could love to wake up to his mercy and control, waking up in Cuffs behind my back that was not there when i fell asleep but they are there no trapping me in place! even my sight is gone he had blindfolded me and cuffed me carefully in my sleep, waking up next to him, cuddling me yet i cannot return the cuddle.. hes awake now just like me, his hand around my throat gripping me tightly in place, pinning me down by the throat, and legs apart slut that i am open then waiting for his ball beating hand that does not come, as he know I am expecting it.. he is cruel not delivering it Bitch! only he waits until I'm not expecting his invasion.. the invasion comes as a deep meaty wide butt plug, far bigger than I can normally take but he delivers it naturally slowly invading me, its fucking wide and certainly deep when it finally goes in i try to relax but feels wider than his fist could deliver.. it fucking hurts but, from him I try to accept it Greedly but I am not enough brave or slack enough! but he still deliveres the meaty butt plug gently and slowly forever it seems deep in my hole.
Eventually its in with pain no doubt, and it feels massive Fuck! even with my hole choking the base it still feels too big!!

face slaps come hard real hard, the distraction hide the beating that follows something i need badly yet the punches come hard right in the balls, the sensation I long for so much from him !!!1 and they come over and over again.