He the one that drives me crazy in thought

 its true I do like him  .. it wont make sense to anyone but HE lol .. I would love to be trapped by him even in a relationship I could love to wake up to his mercy and control, waking up in Cuffs behind my back that was not there when i fell asleep but they are there no trapping me in place! even my sight is gone he had blindfolded me and cuffed me carefully in my sleep, waking up next to him, cuddling me yet i cannot return the cuddle.. hes awake now just like me, his hand around my throat gripping me tightly in place, pinning me down by the throat, and legs apart slut that i am open then waiting for his ball beating hand that does not come, as he know I am expecting it.. he is cruel not delivering it Bitch! only he waits until I'm not expecting his invasion.. the invasion comes as a deep meaty wide butt plug, far bigger than I can normally take but he delivers it naturally slowly invading me, its fucking wide and certainly deep when it finally goes in i try to relax but feels wider than his fist could deliver.. it fucking hurts but, from him I try to accept it Greedly but I am not enough brave or slack enough! but he still deliveres the meaty butt plug gently and slowly forever it seems deep in my hole.
Eventually its in with pain no doubt, and it feels massive Fuck! even with my hole choking the base it still feels too big!!

face slaps come hard real hard, the distraction hide the beating that follows something i need badly yet the punches come hard right in the balls, the sensation I long for so much from him !!!1 and they come over and over again.


Horny mindspace

 Altgough living light years from keen interests theres always a bloke tgat come along in mind anyway 😂👅👅 though as we get older there might be less blokes coming along of course some blokes are not so age limiting 😂 thankfully.. yet im not even 50 yet but feel too old for some 

Its a funny old old world theres this guy in berlin i fancied about 2 years write to him on romeo or maybe i only cruised him i dint know know maybe i did writr cannot fucking remember only he didnt reply fuck noooooooo 😂 its aweful fancying someone only tey cannot fancy you back!! 

Maybe its from my not getting the torment i need alot  thst just makes me wild … yes i really like this guy we seem to be on the same oage in the same sand m book in the same sm library just not the same city 😂 though travelling not a problem.. i personally am a little bit Our kind of sex ‘starved’ 

So to speak maybe not getting it every weekend of every month or ever almost year just makes it wilder maybe!!

And when that monent that sesion or that weekend comes along total control yeah fantasize about that too much full spectrum an agrreement set in stone to be his completely for the night or weekend no way out little to no mercy… though no mercy is a fantasy dangerous to give to the wring person  but with the right chemistry and the right person such a famtasy would be wild some wildness i need probably too much for someone inless tgey too are full spectrum.. its aweful being horny lol a vast ticked list of interests so hard hard to find compatibility nice to fantasize about!! 

Such fantasy arised when i was a glory hole of course no such heavy cbt cam in thst hole tbat anonymous person hidden on the other side was just too gentle aaaaaaagh … wheres the rooe wheres the paddle wheres the vac pum and electro .. fuck 

I just want to meet tat one person i can give absolute control to and he knowing everything im into just be wild with me might only be the night or two 👅👅👅   Anywhoo maybe im talking shit  maybe im too excited fucking hell!!! Anyways even though im writigthis on my blog maybe it wont be on my blog just whsts app to he,him, you 😂 im soory i might write too much  to you im trying to write not much to drive you away i think i have a problem lol 

Too rough or not rough enough for you yet i fantasize of givigyou complete control i would not di give that with everyone..